Life is like a Dream...

NYP group photo :)

2005-08-12T21:17:00.000+08:00

hehe! taking photo at the lab where we practice deliverer.. LOOK! i'm pregnant... Oops!
After long hours of pain, my baby is out... isn't he cute? but who's the father???

Just a joke la... really having fun playing those fake babies but have to be serious when it come to the real one... staying 3 more days at NYP for next week. Cheers!!!

Platonic friendship...

2005-08-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

Knowing the Unidentify group for 4 yrs already. Time files... What we had been through, no one can understand. All the laughters, joys, arguement, crying, slience... so much... And now, we still manage to stay in one. Though life is diff now as some of us r working, some studying and some still serving NS but we still try to make some effort to meet up each other to see whether are we becoming more cuter (ME), more handsome or beautiful. All these are just the outer, what matter is that our inner side of us still care for each other.

I treasure them alot cos they are my closest friends till now. Even though i dun get to see them offen or talk to them much, i know that whenever i need a helping hand (not the round one), or a listening ear they won't reject me... That's what i mean true friends.

After breaking out with Kel, i'm so afraid that somehow it will affect the group. I had a hard time to make the decision and to make myself strong enough to face him whenever there's meeting at the beginning. But glad that we r still friends now though it did hurt me alot.

Somehow i feel that it's better to have a relationship outside the group so that no matter how hurt or sad i am with others i still hav them to support me and i won't be lost.

I always believe that a guy and a gal can be a very close friends but not couple, it's hard. Cos either one party will start to have feeling for the other...

My ex-mentor know a gal for 7yrs. All these yrs, they will very close. They share everything to each other. Relationship problems, stress, jokes and even go oversea together. Untill now then they realise they love each other after so much other relationship with others. They attach for 1/2 a yr then going to marry now. So happy for them... But what if things doesn't go as it is.... i don't know...

Someone ask to give comments abt platonic friendship. What i can say is i do believe but as i say it's hard. i will try to maintain the friendship till u know how the other feel and think seriously. Not every couple can be like my ex-mentor.. ..

-Don't turn Love to Hate though both are 4 letters words-

Life at NYP...

2005-08-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

Life at NYP really not bad, better than at SMM. Hehe! Why?
1) The food there is better
2) I don't have to wear smart 4 (uniform) to go to sch
3) better enviornment
4) better furniture
5) Got Cheap Macdonald :)
Must enjoy myself as much as possible cos it's only 2 1/2 weeks there...

Well! of course the purpose there is to study. The lecturer shown us some of the videos of how the baby is delivered, how the process of pregnancy goes, how to breath when giving birth... So amazing... Staring to imagine myself giving birth, going though all the pain, all the process, all the enjoyment and.... WAIT! I have to stop thinking, imagine too much already. Haha!

When the lecturer showing the breathing method when giving birth, she wanted us to follow too cos it's for relaxation. So we followed... Breath in... hold it... Breath out... close ur eyes, take a deep breathe and let go. As we followed, some of us ZZZzzz fell asleep. Too relax already :) haha!
It show that the method is useful but hopefully mother won't fall asleep which i dun think so as the contraction is so pain....

Hmmm... next week will be busy cos have to prepare for presentation and test for the following week. yup! so after the course than i update my blog la. In the mean time, all of u pls take care la. i will be back.. :)

lst day at NYP...

2005-08-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

Wow! i'm back to school now... starting today, i will be at NYP for 2weeks. on course..
Never expect that i will end up there not studying nursing but for my paramedic course :)

Happening nite!!!

2005-07-19T18:10:00.000+08:00

It's been quite sometime that i have not work nite shift already cos i follow my mentor but he's on nite shift this 2 day. It happened that Samuel working tonite too cos my mentor need him to come to work to discuss some stuffs. So i have 1 new medic, 1 attachment, 1 medic (samuel) me n my mentor tonite and of course driver..:)

We went for a case. 'My fren complain of eyes pain cos some dirty water went into the eyes'. I laughed then the attachment asked me what case. i told him 'Eye ball pop up, almost drop down.. come quick'. He was shock, scared.. i asked him to prepare a ice bag to put the eye ball just in case. haha! I'm so bad. When we arrived, i told him to be careful walking around cos u never know u may step onto the eye ball. He jumped! Seeing the patient at the void deck, he gave a smile to me. The patient was only 15yrs old. He drunk so his fren took water from some container at the void deck to pour on him for him to wake up, didn't realise that the water is dirty. It went into his eyes and he couldn't open them. Police was there as it's an offence for a 15yrs old ppl to drink alcohol. They going to charge him and bring him to boys home. Sad! We didn't convey him cos his dad said he will bring him to hospital himself. So we let him be.

On our way back, we proceed to another case. Fall from height.. That's my lst fall from height case. When we arrived, that guy had gone. The attchment just stand at one side and mouth was opened all the way. We wanted to know what's his injuries so we got the permission from the police to turn him over. When asked to help from the attachment, he shaked his head... hai.. he's so cute! My mentor turned him abit towards him and i hold on to his head. Heavy and full of blood... Facture left knee, right shoulder, rips and his right side of the face Flatten. I could feel all the broken bones when i paplated him. The police investigated and found out that he jumped down from 9th floor. He dun live at that block. He fell just on the pathway. Hard surface... The police covered him after we ponouce him dead then we left.

In the middle of 3am, we got a RTA (Road Traffic Accident) case all the way near Bt Timah. couldn't believe that cos we from TPY, no nearest ambulance nearby at that time? It was a my lst trapped case. Driver drunk bend his car towards a tree. The driver's door was crash so badly and he couldn't come out. All the Fire frighter were there, more than 10 of them tryiong to get all out using equitment. We made sure that he can moved his limbs, DABC (D-spine, Airway, Breathing and circulation) clear b4 the guys carry on to get him out. He was so lucky and no passenger inside. Took more than 30mins to get him out then We send him to NUH...

7 calls for the night all together and we didn't manage to rest much.. I was so tired. Panda eyes had betray me. I went home straight after i reached station and slept all the way from 9-6pm without even taking my bkfast and lunch. hehe! i had my dinner after i woke up then went for the 2nd night of my shift...

Going out with Qin whole day???

2005-07-18T19:30:00.000+08:00

Meet up with Qin early in the morn at 9plus to go Yishun's house cos long time never see him already. We walked all the way from my house to his place at lor8. Finally we reached his place. Who's that black guy? OMG!!! Yishun look like indian guy to us. We spend around 3hrs at his place chit chatting and see some of his photos. He going off back to camp around 1pm. i decided to watch movie at Orchard after that. So i called Lihping to see if he wanted to join us cos he ended his lesson at 12pm today. He brought a fren along named 'Shan Fu' 19yrs old to join us.

Lihping reached Cineleisure lst so i asked him to buy tickets for us. Today Cineleisure giving off free tickets for all the sessions of movies as long as u purchase a Straits Times and cut out the coupons and u can redeem the tickets for FREE! Wow! So what are we waiting for.. We watched 'Crying out in the centre of the world' and then Qin get 2 more tickets for ' man in the hole' (no idea what show but the others sold out already) after the show to watch with my sis later. Too bad i have to work at night and Lihping had to go off too .......
My sis came with her uniform. Since i going home to change b4 work. She exchanged everything with me. Clothes, bag and Qin. haha! lst time i wore her uniform, so weird! Qin almost called the wrong person. She felt like spending the day with the same person the whole day.

I went home and my family was shock to know it was me in that uniform. I had my dinner, change to my uniform and then off to work. I told my dad, i had a hard time working 2 jobs. So rush... He laugh :() Twins... that's us...

' Magic wok'

2005-07-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

i organised a outing for my station ppl at 'Magic wok' as Ferdi one of the paramedic going over sea since and we may not be able to see him for the rest of our life cos he's migrating with his whole family to US. Wish him all the best! With my effort, 12 of them make it there. John brought along his gf too. so sweet! It was a quite place at Novena square. We enjoyed the food and spend 3hrs sitting down to chit chat. John and Ferdi insisted to give us a treat when the bill came. Luckily it's not that ex $101.

What's next? Seen like everyone got their own programmes so they left one by one. I had no plan so decided to follow Ermin to esplanade to watch 'Bay beat' Bands concert. We listened from 4-7pm then decided to go have our dinner. Passed by 1 resturant named 'Oilo' at Sun tec fountain and we went in to try. The food was nice. i like it. We didn't manage to finish the pizza so asked to take away. The course ended with a brownie each.. Yummy!

Had a wonderful day and thanks Ermin for accompany me when i felt so lost after everyone had left.

My cooking day...

2005-07-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

Well, as i said that i will be cooking today and i did...

Woke up at 10am today just to clean up my house cos i invited Peter and Charlie (Pmts) over for dinner. Why i invited them??? Hmmm... What i can say is 'They are lucky ba'. Next time then i cook for u guys k? :)

I spent 2 hrs to clean and clear up the study rm. 1 hr to vacuum and mop the whole house. Then i remember i didn't have my lunch yet, just ate 2 spoon of porrige only :( Felt abit hungry already. Went to buy a Big mac ($2) to settle fast so that i can start my preparation.

[What i cooked for dinner]
- White miso vegetable stew
(ingredents - corns, potatoes, carrots(my fav), cauliflowers, milk, white miso, unsalted butter, plain flour, salt and pepper)

-Salted minced pork
(ingredents - salted fish, ginger, chilli padi, minced pork, water, pepper, sesame oil)

-crabstick eggs
(ingredents - crabsticks, eggs, pepper, light soya sauce and tomato)

- Vegetable (dun know wat veg.. Oops!)
(ingredents - 2 packets of veg, salt, water, oyster sauce)

- Seasoned chicken wrap with oil paper ( Zi bao ji)
(ingredents - Chicken, spring onion, ginger, salt, suger, cooking wine, sesame oil, ginger juice)

http://photos1.blogger.com/img/271/6875/1024/P0053.jpg
5 dishes.Alot of work...Luckily mum helped me some when she's home. My dad reached home and tot it was his BD cos it was a surpise to him. Sis tot she came to the wrong house cos the study rm become so much neater. But the time we ate till half way then i realised that i forgot to take photos of the .. I managed to take the chicken only cos no one touch that yet.Peter and Charlie seen to like the food though they never mention cos every dishes are clear. What a day? Feelin tired already but i still wanna write this post today cos i know u all can't wait to know my cooking day.. :) That's it.. nite!!!

Zi bao ji

2005-07-14T00:52:00.000+08:00

ps: The carrot in the centre is done by my sis :)

Eat, Movie, shopping... wat's else can be greater?

2005-07-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

Went to eat pizza with 2 of my pmts frens (Peter n Patrick). It had been such a long time that i never eat pizza hut already. Thinking of going there to celebrated jing's BD.. See how:) Well, pretty enjoyed myself eating. hehe! Yummy...

After that went to watch F4. Not the 'Flower 4' but the movie 'Fantastic 4'. An 1 1/2hr show only but it's enough. Sure got part2.. intro of the show.....

Marvel's first family of comic superheroes takes the world by storm as the longest running comic book series in history comes to the big screen. Reed Richards/Mr. Fantastic, who can elongate his body, Susan Storm/Invisible Woman, who not only can become invisible at will but can render other objects invisible, Johnny Storm/Human Torch, who can shoot fire from his finger tips and bend flame, and Ben Grimm/The Thing, a hideously misshapen monster with superhuman strength, together battle the evil Doctor Doom.

normally i will walk around shopping but after the show, i requested to go Carefour cos i wanted to cook dinner tml.. Surpised!!! 'U cook? Peter asked' haha! ya! recently cut alot of recipes from magazine and newspaper make me feel like cooking some of the dishes. It will be the lst time that my grandma dun have to step into the kitchen at all as i will be cooking all the dishes by myself... Can't wait for tml, wonder how things go..

-if you feel like doing something, go ahead... even if it fail but at least u had tired-

i think u need a job

2005-07-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

Found this interesting comic. If u think it match ur daily life style then u have to start to think abt something to do :) Good luck!!!

Laziness in us

2005-07-08T22:12:00.000+08:00

After reading Ran's blog, i realised what he said was really true. There's a laziness in all of us. Really have to push urself to do something no matter what.. Study, working, doing house chores, even writing blog sometime. Haha!.. Do we have to let ppl around us ask to nag and push us before we do work??? Humans... that's what we are..

Just like my study, if my mentor never force me to read, guess i really dun know when or where to start. I'm too weak in it.. Jia you ba! If u really feel like doing something, go for it. Can't finish doing at one time, do it step by step. One day u will realise u done it and u better look for another work to start agn.. What u waiting for? :)

Today went to meet a fren of mine which i know during my lst level 2 course. He's Jair. never seen him for alomst 6mths. that's long ba.. I really glad that he has been msging me abt what he's been doing and his problems but i'm sorry i can't do the same to him. As i already said that i dun wanna give ppl an idea that they hav a chance so i wanna be very normal to him. He made a speacial one for me with my name on it.. I like that cos it's my name:) Well, i'm not angry abt him and i still treat him as a fren of mine. I hope he take care and have a bright future after he ord in Dec.. Keep in touch!!!

-Be possitive , think possitive to get possiitive results-

Study, Study and more study...

2005-07-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

Now i have a new mentor... so diff from last time. He giving me stress but in a good way. He wants me to pass out as a paramedic not only know how to send patient to hospital but know the contition of them well. I really have to buck up, so much to learn but it will not come to an end cos it's medical.

Well, i also glad that Qin is willing to teach me and also learn together with me. Cos for me, it's really hard to study alone. If i dun understand a topic, no matter how long i spend time studying i still dun get it. I need ppl to explain to me lst then i can go read more abt it. So from now on, Qin is my teacher :) Hehe!

Today, i went to novena square to look for some medical books. I received a msg from Jer saying his mum was awarded at SGH after a operation @ 320pm. After knowing, i told my fren that i had to leave to pay a visit and i did. i reached at 4pm. Jer was saying that was fast. He didn't expect me to come. hehe! wo you xin ma! It had really been a very long time that i havn't seen his family members. Had a nice chat with them. I stayed till 4.45pm then i gtg. Jer walked with me all the way back to mrt station. We talked non-stop. I miss him.

Have to work later so going to rest now. Won't be able to make it to SGH agn cos i will be working. I told his mum that we will go his house on his BD. Hope she get well soon and take care! Good night!

My Medic's BD chalet

2005-06-30T14:05:00.000+08:00

Last night i went to aloha loyang to celebrate Shawal's BD. He's 21st also. Well, he's a korean mix guy. I was so impress by his mother cos she's super friendly and a great cook also. She made some korean dishes n sushi for us. So delicious... i spent 1/3 of my time there BBQ for the rest to eat. Gave up when i really feel so tired.

Beside a celebration for him, it's also a farewell party for the 2 paramedic that had resigned. Most of the ppl from my station went down. well, i will post some photos for u to see next time.
Kind of miss all the calls and time we spend together esp with my mentor. I really miss him... i wish that he has a better future outside.

Intend to stay over night cos i'm not working the next day. But seem like no one going to stay over. Before 12am, all of them wanted to leave already. So i left too.. The Pmt who also live in TPY send me home...:) Her BD is after 12am. I passed her a present in her car when she's driving. She's abit surpise. hehe!

Home Sweet Home! My family was shock that i'm home cos i told them i going to stay over there. Sis said no one wanted me so i came home. Well, she's wrong...
I enjoyed every single moments i spend with them cos it won't be that often we can gather like this. I can say no more...
Once i got the photos from them i will post for u to see. Be patient!

suddenly blogger turns into saddness...

2005-06-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

What happened? found that eversince i started to write about my feelings, my sadness, Ter started to copy me. That copy ribbit, what can i say abt him... :p
and now everyone did. My fault? i think i just let everyone bring out the feelings which we dun normally say out in life ba.. hehe! I'm just like a lighter. bring up the light in ur heart. sounds great.. hahaha...
Pretty down after reading one by one blog..
What i feel and what i think have been writen down by all of u. i just dun feel like typing the same old things abt jer as all of u already know him. i lost of words to him. Give him some time ba.. :)
Kel leaving us on the 28th June to Thailand for 1 month. He will be back on the 27th July. This news should be writen on his blog but that guy knows nothing but posting photos in his blog.. what the ****??? Oops! Haiz... dun wanna say abt him.. anyway, dun have to think of sending him off cos he needs to be at the airport by 2 plus AM. realise what, i mention AM. His flight is at 4 AM. SO he told us not to send. Wait for him to come back then.. Just hope that we can spend time with him on this coming Sunday no matter where we go la... MUst miss us cos we will miss u too... Take care!

-everyone has a reason behind when doing something. Sometime u will be surpise when u know it-

my Feeling... relationship?

2005-06-10T18:04:00.000+08:00

I hate myself! I don't know why out of sudden but i just hate myself so much. The way i handle relationship ba... Recently one of my friend (pmt) told me he will like to chase me but i rejected. He said i'm a nice gal but too nice to everyone may make them mistaken. He's not the the lst one to said that cos my sis said that too... But after that he told me he knew why i behave in this way and i guess what he said was correct... I just wan ppl to accept me ba but end up i cause them upset n draw a line with me.

I really hurt one of my medic so much that he wrote his feeling in his blog. Even now i just wanna say sorry to him though i know it doesn't help anymore. Working together in the same station, now he only talk to me work stuffs n a 'HI'. i cant expect much. He's really a nice guy just that i have my reasons behind...

Actually ever since i broke off with kel, i dun know how to be myself infront of him. We had too much memories together. 2 yrs in ITE, Vitnam trip, Genting trip, working at GV... so much, so much.. i miss him but that was the past. I just couldn't accept him back, i will hurt him more, make him cry, lost my temper... i can't see my future with him, i just hope that he can find someone else in the future.

Back to the ktv incident.. I also don't know why i cried, can't stopped myself. But i really envy sis ba. I just happy for her that Qin care for her so much. Appologise to u all...

Everyone is looking for someone perfect but what is perfect? Do everyone have to agree or accept ur choice? Or u just choose the one u like and dun care how others think? Seen like my choice is always wrong. i just wanna simple but simple can be difficult too.

I missed those time at ITE. That's the best part of my life for now and forever. I like being with my 'unidentifly' group even though it's not the same as before.

Tears keep dropping. Think i have to stop now. Felt like i had took out some stones in my heart already.

All the promises we've made...
All the empty words i've prayed......
All the hopes faded away day after day.........
(from Raymond)

My Station, My Home...

2005-06-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

Back to work but it's no longer the same as before.. Bisahn Station used to be happy, warm n full of laughter. But now, my mentor n one of the paramedic resigned already. We used to run 2 ambulances in the day and night 1. cos of not enough PM (paramedic), my station running 1 in the day and 1 at night now. pretty sad...
Working the last 2 night shift with my mentor before he left was the worst.. He had no mood to work so am i. I miss him...
WOrst!!! Paramedic office air-con are down and need 2 weeks to repair. WHAT!!! 2 weeks??? I was so surpise to see office windows all open and only 1 stand Fan inside a big office. We sweat so much when we come back from calls and need to do paper work in there. Sometime we have to move ourselves to the STORE (where we keep all our medical items) cos there have air-con.
Sometimes i have been thinking of my future. To upgrade myself after my pass out from Paramedic level 3 and to get a driving licence.

- every careers has it own stress, depend on how u overcome them-
I hope i can overcome mine...

Holidays to Tioman Trip :) 21-23 May

2005-05-27T13:06:00.000+08:00

Good afternoon Everyone! B4 start the story i report strenght lst...
Actual strenght: Me, sis , Da ge and Da sao + the cell group (13 ppl)
Present strenght: 12 ppl
reason: on MC
Now i carry on...

Finally finally finally... A break for me to go for a trip. Sis had been asking me to join while i'm still at Level 2 course. So i went to take my lst leave once i went back to station. As 21-22th May were already my off days so i took a block leave which were 23-25th my 3 working days off n 26th was my off agn so i start work on 27th night shift.. What a long break :) Sis jealous leh.. hehe!

Well, as i mentioned that i got bikini for my BD presents so we brought that along. We met at Orchard since 6am. After 4 hrs of bus trip, waited 4 hrs at the ferry then took 1 1/2hr to reach Tiomah isalnd (PAYA BEACH RESORT). By that time it was already around 4pm. That's not the worst.. It started to rain heavily once we went into our resort. Can you imagine that? we can't even go to the BEACH... Ahh.... @_@ We ended up playing BORED games.
Till evening time then we get change to go for a swim b4 dinner... lst time wearing bikini leh... Guys what r u waiting for.. hehe!!!:p
Dinner : Rammi Burger, satays, fried noodles etc..
The satay was good :) very tasty n tender. Yummy! we walked for a while n went to rest early to prepare for tml. We are going to snorklled the whole day.

The day i becoming a mermaid finally come true. Though it only last for a day but i can't ask for much. Swimming with snorkel, i could really see all the fishes and sea creatures. They are so wonderful. i hold a piece of bread on my hand and all the fishes swam towards me. I love that feeling.. What's more! I saw Dolly & Nemo( crown fishes). So Kawaii... We swim for hrs & hrs before & after lunch. Even after we reach our resort, we find that it's not enough. So those who booked for massage went for it while the others went snorklled at the nearby Island for one round. Took us around an hr plus.. By the time we were back at shore, we were burned & Tired.. Went for shower n prepared for dinner..
Today dinner: Different dishes shared toghter with plain rice & of course satays agn + desert (ice kagang). The desert was abit speacial cos on top of it was milo & penants power.. Hmmm... mum mum..

We went back to play bored games. Didn't want to waste time sleeping cos we can slp on the journy back. We actually played bored games till 4am, till we were bored. Think that's why they are called BORED games ba.. :) All of us went to slp Zzzz

Our ship coming at 2pm.. We had our last burger agn. tried different store.. can't stop eating..
Actually 3 days 2 night is more than enough, we can't do much there also. Went there for snorkelled only. Wasted alot of time travelling.. Luckily i brought along my MP3 player which i put 200 songs inside. Listening to it with my sis thoughout the journey... Everything was delayed. The ship, the bus n the jam... So me n sis were supposed to meet the unidentify for dinner to celebrate Randy's BD which is on the 24 May, in the end we can't make it. reach home around 11pm.. Haiz... then found out from Qin that Ran didn't turn out for that dinner.. What??? A BD dinner without the BD guy??? Hmmm... so interesting.. have to find out more.. hehe!
Time to slp la. Missed lying down after sitting for so long... *sign*

- Try to see things from a different view, you will find that everythings have it gd point-

A Touching moment...

2005-05-13T01:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm... My BD!!!:) We had a meeting with CMO today at HQ. PMTs wanted to go shopping at orchard to buy me present. I went along to choose cos they have no idea... in the end... i choose bikini. One set for me and One set for my sis. :) hehe! 21yrs old already.. Time to be more sexy, if not when will i have the chance to wear that.. wow!
I went off after that cos i had other programme. Dinner at Fish & Co follow by a movie 'Kingdom of Heaven'. Well, that was really nice. But i was rushing, rushing home to meet Terence. He wanted to meet me n sis as he wish to be the last one to celebrate our BD on the actual day. I tried my best to be there b4 12am and i did...
They were near the playground and i saw... 2 bouquets of 21 flowers.. Red one for me, peach one for sis...
A 1/2 kg mango cheese cake, a card by Jeremy n Ter and 2 piece of small cake by Rujing for our Breakfast. I never expect that. Jeremy was there too.. He looked so tired n i'm sorry to keep them waiting. Just wanna say Thanks Buddy, not once but all :)
- A moment that i will always remember not becos of the flowers , gifts or cake. It's the true friendship i can feel from them-

After being 20yrs of child n Teenage, i finally an adult...

2005-05-12T01:19:00.000+08:00

It's my Big BIg BIG DAY!!!.. 'I'm a Big big girl in a big big world' hehe!!!
The best gift i got for myself is that i passed Paramedic level 2 :)
i went to KTV with all the recent PMTs at night from 8-12am. Asked my sis to join cos i really wish to spend with her the very lst min of our BD together. Qin joined too cos she wanted to accompany us by staying overnight at our place so we can go hm after that together.
I booked the VIP KTV Rm cos there are 12 ppl coming. A BIG room with a BIG group of ppl on my BIG day... Muhahaha!!! Oops! have to control abit... hehe:)
Really enjoyed alot. Though i wish to celebrate with the 'unidentify' group cos they are my bEST friends, i think what they want are as long i'm happy they will be happy for me too.. If really happen that i'm alone with me, i'm sure that they will come from diff direction 'North, South , East , West' just to be with me...
We ended the KTV with the song none other than 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY'. didn't join them for supper later cos sis still have to work the next day and of course need to go hm n open the gifts from Qin n the 'unidentify'.
Qin gave me 3 boxes of gifts but only 1 is the correct one. i opened 2 out of 3 and both are the wrong one. My Luck :( Finally the last one, it's a Straightener Tool.. Hmm... wat a surpise! Very useful to me. :p Thanks!!! If you wanna know what Qin gave to my sis.. ( pls see her blog for more info)
That's all for the day.. going to slp. nite nite everyone..

- You don't have to be there by my side all times but you always be in my heart.-

Yeah! I Passed out already :)

2005-05-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

Last Day at SMM after 6 weeks of studies & Tests.. I made it finally...:)
Actually this time was recourse, i went once at Feb but failed. Cried so badly last day after knowing i have to recourse together with the other 4 ppl. :( But i glad that i had one more chance..
Joining another group of ppl, i was a bit worried at lst. Worried that i can't get along with them, worried that they might looked down at me But all that worry was no longer in me when i met them.. They are nice to me n i can get along well with them too... really glad to know them.
Well, it's over now. I have to look forward for other courses in the future.

Attachment over...

2005-05-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

Yeah! I passed my medical tests :) Still got final paper to go on the 9th n 10th... Buck up Karen!!!

Went to TTSH for attachment on the 5, 6, 7 of May. Morn, aternoon , morn shift..
Last time i went to SGH cos TTSH having renovation. Now done.. Actually it's gd that i attached TTSH cos that's the hospital i always send patients to. I can get to know the doctors n nurses there..

5th May
lst day at TTSH. There's a nurse in charge called Yu Yong. She showed me all the equipment n where things are put. Me trying to get use to this place. Thoughout the whole day i called her You Yong (Swimming). I didnt know until my friend told me.. SO Pai sei @'_'@.. A very busy day...

6th May
2nd day of attachment.. Today work from 2-930pm. When i attending a patient today with a doctor, the doctor suddenly asked 'How old r u?'.. I answered '21 yrs old' then the doctor looked at patient. The patient answered '42 yrs old'. Ahh!!! what am i doing?Why did i answer the doctor when he not even talking to me? I told my friends, they laughed facing the wall..
(-__-''').. after work have to rush down to Thomas's chalet at Aloha Changi. WOW!!! late n far but it's his BD, i jus wanted to be there. Going to stay over night n go work nxt morn from there. Thomas came fetch me from Tampines Mrt with his gf. He told me he invited U channel acters n actress for his BD. I dun believe... BUT... They are really there ( NEXT CHALET). It's Bryan Wong's BD. Celest, Quan Yifeng, Shen QingShan, Lee ZhiQin so on.... Can't see them clear cos it's dark but we know they r there. Anyway, Wat's so BIG deal? They r humans just like us, open chalet to celebrate BD so we didn't disturb them..
Ken teached us a new games using poker cards. Fun!!! played till 3.30am then slp. I only managed to slp well at 4.30pm. Slp for an hr then Thomas send me to Tampines MRT st. from there i travel down to work.. Yawn!!! Wat a day...

7th May
Early in the morn, Ambulance send in a fall from height case. A woman 30 plus yrs old, jumped down from 11th floor. didn't die.. Dislocated Left elbow, hip, knee n ankle. ? head injurly... She collapse 3 times n all of us tried to do CRP on her. Got back her pulse but when they send her to OT (Operation Therate). She collasped.. Can't help anymore. SAd!! Can only do that much.. last day at TTSH, enough for me.. Too tired and need to prepare for test on mon..
Well, hope to get back to u guys to tell u abt my results. Got to go rest now, going to study at station tml. Nite nite!

-Don't Give up Life easily, There's always Hope-

Feel like having a break

2005-05-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

What a day? Ah!!! Tomolo is my medical theroy paper... I stayed at home to study cos today holiday everyone need a break.
Woke up at 11am... WOW! it been such a long time never slp till this time.. hehe!!! Still feeling abit unwell but have to study la.. No excuse!!! After lunch, i start to read my notes..
Yawn! Weather is so hot. can't concentrate my study. Feel like jogging but sis don't wanna join me. SO i jog alone listening to Ter's MP3 player. Jog around 1/2hr much.. ENOUGH! Have to start to train for my IPPT already.
Sometime i just feel so empty. My heart, my mind...
Thinking of my future. My career, my friends, my family...
Always wish to start a family of my own, but i afraid...
Afraid of the choice i make, afraid that i don't know how to handle relationship well
afraid i can't settle down, afraid that i'm still young...
Going back to my study now..

-When i in love with someone, i really do n i mean it-

Conveyed to TTSH

2005-05-01T18:26:00.000+08:00

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Whole day not feeling well... Diarrhoea the whole afternoon after came back from Ter's place.. Don't mistaken, not Ter fault. i didn't eat anything at his place.. Don't know what's the cause also..
Started to vomit after dinner.. Undigested food, medicine, plain water.. almost every single things i ate, i vomitted.. Felt so terrible. Stomach pain started from 8pm onwards. On & off.. Bear with it till 1am then i decided to ask my sis to call ambulance for me..
Me as a paramedic training for almost a year. Sending so many patient to hospital before, now then i can really feel how they been convey to hospital..
My Station Paramedic n medics that night came. They smiled once they saw me cos they were guessing was it me when they saw the address. In the END. none other than ME...
They even wanted to send me to KK women, suspected pregency.. HAHA! All that was just joking. Sis accompany me all the way from 1.30- 5am.. She took a nap outside sitting on the chair while i'm inside lying ion the bed on drip for 2hrs before i can go. Touch!
We went home together then slp... This is my lst time been convey. Well, i'm fine now. Don't Worry!!!

-When i need you... where are you?-

Stress...

2005-04-30T18:18:00.000+08:00

My lst entry of blog..
Feeling so strss nowadays cos of my recourse Level 2 of Paramedic. 2 weeks more to go...
I choose a line that i want to be so have to go for it.. JIA YOU ba KAren!!!
Didn't have time to spend for my ITE buddies, feel like i have negelet them already. They are all i have, though not one can really understand or know how i feel but they are all willing to be with me at all time..
Recently, Ter's grandfather passed away. 2 years ago, my grandfather passed away, ter n Kel came to look for me everyday after sch to accompany me. This time, i wanted to be there for him too... i went to look for him around 7am today.That's the only time i'm free cos sat no lesson for me.. When i saw him, i really felt like giving him a hug cos i don't know what to say to him. Body language to express ba... But i didn't... I just spend time with him though in the end i slept for 2hrs at his place as i was too tired.
Time, love, care n concern is what i can give to you Ter...

- You can't stop your love ones to leave you, but you can make a different by showing them how much you love them-

Karen